Today's Mantra - Juicy Details

So as I was saying, one of my clients is a Cognitive Behavioral Therapist. She briefly introduced me to the concept of "balanced and unbalanced thoughts" last night.

I didn't want to tell her my whole embarrassing story; she is a client and I also work with her children, but this is what I took away from it.

We are all prone to having unbalanced thoughts. An unbalanced thought has elements of judgement, assumption, subjective type things rather than objective.

For example : I am a bad person because of the way it ended with my ex.

This would be an unbalanced thought. What I did was bad, but I am not a bad person. (At least that's what I am attempting to believe, not sure I am 100% there yet.)

So, I am trying to correct this by repeating a balanced thought like this: People love me because I am a good person.

(I don't know if this is actually a balanced thought! All I know is it is a counter-thought.)

I have said this multiple times to myself today now. I used to feel like a good person, so it's not a complete stretch.

I do remember specifically a conversation with someone who very vocally chose to take my ex's "side". He said to me on the phone "you act like such a good person, with all your activism on Facebook and talk about animals and the environment, but you aren't a good person, and I thought everybody should know."

I was outed as being a "bad person" and I lost quite a few friends. I lost friends, but the worst part was how much it hurt my ex. And that is when I got SIBO.

I still have friends. My family loves me. My fiance and I, well, we turned our worlds upside down to be together. It's real true love that I was lead to in prophetic dreams.  It's not like I don't have love in my life. But I have SO much guilt, so much anger at myself, so much regret in how I handled that situation. I loved my ex, I still do, he is a great person, and I can FEEL it in the energy around me how much he hates me/loves me/was and is still hurt by me lying to him.

That is why this thought might help. People love me and I am a good person.